Sweet Nothings

2007-07-07T21:56:00.000+08:00

yesh... its confirmed that i am moving!
my friends pls take note!

but i will be around here once
in a while to read tags :D will leave it on...

http://neko-chanwonders.blogspot.com <- new blog

you still can read the past posts here too :)

2007-07-06T16:10:00.000+08:00

i thinking of moving me blog will let all know soon :D

bye bye!

2007-07-01T00:26:00.000+08:00

What happens when your world falls apart?
Will you still say "i will follow You?"

Will you still be with God no matter what?

think about it :)

I'm sorry, Lord, for the things I've made it...

2007-06-26T23:41:00.000+08:00

I realized that
i haven't been spending time with God

Lately, BandzOut's taking alot of
my time and i'm rarely seen on duty for ministry
and i haven't been going for Choir Practice to sing for the Lord

i feel a ashamed of myself..
i konw i love Him and i know i want to be with Him
but why aren't my actions showing it..
i keep taking Him for granted
asking Him to bless this and bless that
and never really returning the love He has for me.
I really need to spend more time with Him.
My heart's turning more and more worldly
as I turn more towards BandzOut.
Don't get me wrong my OGls friends
i'm not saying that BandzOut is bad,
just that i the one's to blame, i am at fault.
I must always have the time for my God.
My One true Love who never would let me go..

and as the song "Heart of Worship" says..

When the music fades and all is stripped away
And I simply come
Longing just to bring something that's of worth
That will bless Your heart

I'll bring You more than a song
For a song in itself
Is not what You have required
You search much deeper within
Through the way things appear
You're looking into my heart

I'm coming back to the heart of worship
And it's all about You
All about You, Jesus
I'm sorry, Lord, for the things I've made it
When it's all about You
All about You, Jesus

King of endless worth, no one could express
How much You deserve
Though I'm weak and poor, all I have is Yours
Every single breath

2007-06-20T18:40:00.000+08:00

i've been told i talk to much...
and now i starting to think so too
which reminds me of the song
"my stupid mouth" by John Mayer
(scroll down further for the song)

(ranting here don't read if you not interested)
its like tell me to just be on mute mode
i can't really change who i really am in
such a short time.

Why can't he* just tolerate a little if it
happens again
And then you make 20/06/07's meeting so exclusive
even most of the committee don't even know
i understand you take charge to help the event out
but don't make it so exclusive can anot?!?!?!?!
Since you make it so exclyusive and so jolly well
choose not to talk to me then i mind as well QUIT!
i no need to stand you
KOROPOKE! KOROPOKE! KOROPOKE! KOROPOKE!
KOROPOKE! KOROPOKE! KOROPOKE! KOROPOKE!
KOROPOKE! KOROPOKE! KOROPOKE! KOROPOKE!
KOROPOKE! KOROPOKE! KOROPOKE! KOROPOKE!
KOROPOKE! KOROPOKE! KOROPOKE! KOROPOKE!
even people say i not talking = i emo
sian la!!! you KOROPOKE! go get yourself dipped
in strawberry cream la donut!!!
KOROPOKE!!!
Wish one day you get stoned!!!!
>:(

2007-06-11T00:20:00.001+08:00

Okay i'm going to blog about
Japanese Music that i so love :D

First is a funky song that i found today
Called: Everybody hates my Guitar sound by Beat Crusaders
and its a very funky song and here's the lyrics:

Everybody hates my guitar sound
Don't know why they hate my guitar sound
Everybody hates my guitar sound
Wonder why they hate my guitar sound

But i know
That i'm doing for you
Everything is for you
There's no reason to change my world
And sell my soul
And i'm doing for you
Everything is for you
There's no reason to change my world
And sell my soul

I'm gonna let it be
I'm gonna let it be
I'm gonna let it be myself and i

Wanna let you see
Wanna let you see
Wanna let you listen to my solo

When i first heard the song,
i immediately thought about God.
Be Yourself no matter what others do to you
Listen up Christians hope this song will lift your
spirits up to be an "on Fire" Christian!!
Do it for God and not for what others think about you.
God made us unique and that we should be
proud of being a Christian!!
Which leads me to my currently fav Jap singer
his name us JUNE
and he aa song which really is a very good song
called "Pride of Tomorrow"
God is my Pride of Tomorrow
The One i live for! -Amen!
He loves gospel songs :D
he's Korean and sings Japanese!*drools*
This ish JUNE!! *loves!!*

2007-06-06T23:47:00.000+08:00

WHEEEE!!!!

XV is long gone...
VoiceOut(VO) was a fun fun blast! hahaha...

XV got me creative on games!!!
VO got me to like chinese songs!! haha..
(dinnie & yiling if you're reading this pls help me!
i very noob at chinese songs haha)

With these 2 events over...
Now may turn to headache..
Next event: BandzOut!
We very troubled.. Not enough bands..
and then not enough publicity! need to push push le..
LAST 2 DAYS!! (from today that is)

Sianz... i feel like we are not doing enough
not going to make it- feeling.. :S
unless God pulls a fantastic miracle and then
like suddenly we have 15 bands joining us haha..
that be good.. haha
that be really good... i pray so pray so...

Got to go le.. tomorrow got school sleepy...
needa sleep and very excited about the schools seminar!! haha..
Yay!! can't wait!! :D it's going to be exciting must go okay?

2007-06-03T22:18:00.000+08:00

Emerge was a blast!
Am very much filled very brimmed with spiritual food!!
Thank you Pastor Kong for bringing back my spiitual hunger for God!
It's all about being spiritually hungry for God and really be responsible for
our schools and being like Gideon and the 300 hundred men!!!

GOTTA TAKE THE SCHOOLS!!

Yippy!! Saturday was the first day in our new place!
I got only one word to say about the place..
AWESOME!
It's a real beautiful place!
the hall is great and i think i can see my house from there!! XD
Love the new place!
And best of all...
i one of the great wonderful and beautiful people contributing it
for a year! YEA~~!!! haha i love my church!!
Pictures of it to come soon!!! :D

Lately, i'm not sure why but i kind of find that
there are things not told to me and i'm feeling a little lost! :O
oh dear God please fill me in on the things i need to know!!
I'm borken towards You, Lord!! Help!!

by th way, Granado Espada means best sword i think haha
discovered it with a spanish to english dictionary. :)

2007-05-30T23:34:00.000+08:00

My stupid mouth,
Has got me in trouble.
I said too much again.
To a date over dinner yesterday
And I could see she was offended.
She said well anyway...
Just dying for a subject change.

Oh, its another social casualty
Score one more for me
How could I forget?
Mama said think before speaking
No filter in my head.
Oh, whats a boy to do?
I guess he better find one soon

We bit our lips. she looked out the window
Rolling tiny balls of napkin paper
I played a quick game of chess with the
Salt and pepper shaker.
And I could see clearly
An indelible line was drawn
Between what was good, what just
Slipped out and what went wrong.

Oh, the way she feels about me has changed.
Thanks for playing, try again.

How could I forget?

Mama said think before speaking
No filter in my head.
Oh, whats a boy to do?
I guess he better find one.

Im never speaking up again. it only hurts me.
Id rather be a mystery than she desert me.

Oh Im never speaking up again.
Starting now

One more thing.
Why is it my fault?
So maybe I try too hard
But its all because of this desire
I just wanna be liked, I just wanna be funny.
Looks like the jokes on me
So call me captain backfire

Im never speaking up again it only hurts me.
Id rather be a mystery than she desert me.

Oh Im never speaking up again
Starting now

This is what i'm feeling haha..
it seems that pass few weeks i've been saying things that ain't meant for listening..
and got some peeps to stop talking to me... or stop smiling..
O what have i done!
No filter in my head!
what's a boy to do.. i guess he'd better find on new..

dear holy spirit need your help..
my the words that comes out of my mouth be of your words and not mine..
-Amen!

2007-05-26T10:27:00.000+08:00

Sometimes i feel like i want to leave the hose and never come back..
Dad's always assuming that he's right and all others are wrong
mum gets emotionally abused by dad and keeps thinking negatively
no matter how much positiveness was talked into in her..
granny's a little left out.. Everything no one updates her..
and she's the only thing left keeping mum and dad's relationship together
what will happen next i want..
its so chaotic..
God I'm getting tired
Need to see the miracle in me..
'Cos i believe in You..

2007-05-20T23:07:00.000+08:00

Red Rain's comin'!
Its going to be exciting!

16th to 17th JUNE!!

haha anyone interested?
the tix is free!

2007-05-14T21:27:00.000+08:00

Haiz... I'm bored..
Very bored..

Very few things to do like BO props and TIM stuff..

A midst of it all..
Dad and Mum are having a rough time..
Dad's making mum depressed! D: My mum's emoing!!

Ever since last tuesday, he and my mum had an arguement!
and from there things did not turn out good..
Then Saturday, mum just made an affectionate action on him
and he talked at mum for doing it.
My mum then said that he could just told her nicely
but he butted back saying that he is always been like this
and after that.. silence was in the house..
and they are not talking to each other!!

What do i do sia...
very tiring one leh..
See one throw tantrum and cold shoulder and do as he pleases without having to the other.
And then watch another go emo and keep saying that no one loves her.. < It pains me one le..
Why they both so selfish one! Don't even know who they hurt when they like that..
God.. If you're reading this please help! I need help God! I really need You!!
Help make my family happy again pls! - Amen!

2007-05-14T00:18:00.000+08:00

*laughs with great excitement*

haha! finially i am able to turn my OS
white! haha here's a look!

And my coursor has shrunk!!
All Thanks to the creative peeps from DA!!
Great is the Lord for your creativeness!

MUAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

Here too! In case you can't see :D

2007-05-11T23:49:00.000+08:00

Today Concludes the last day of Pastor Kong's Seminar.
The Sermon today is a continuation if what he said yesterday!
It was just as impacting as the previous one!

Wow So cool la! He elaborated more on Culture
There are 3 types of Cultures: Folk, High and Pop!

Pastor Kong also preached about Why people turn to Pop culture
as Pop Culture is the culture for the average life.
And that many people can relate the things in pop culture in their life
like Emo(10cent) songs and watching the news etc.

Fellow Christians let not shun away from pop culture
make it work for us! Let "common grace" pave the way for Saving Grace, God's Grace!

Lets be the light and the salt of the world! Heal and Guide! -Amen!

2007-05-10T23:30:00.000+08:00

Pastor Kong's seminar today was truly a spiritual feast!
Wow! He's sermon today was very impacting!
Today Pastor Kong preached about us being CONVERSIONISTS!
He preached about how God called Himself names like El Shaddim Jehorah, etc.
How Man was created so specially by God who calls himself El Hohim(God the creator)
How Man's creativeness was from God Himself!
How creative Man was still despite having sinned! ~ Especially for Cain!

And Despite our creativity has turned crupted and twisted and truned bad..
God did not destroy us
God is not a destroyer but a redeemer! He had ways to redeem us from our fallen nature!

Pastor Kong also preached about how we can make use of Pop Culture to bring Glory to God!
How we can bring people to God through Pop culture!
So Cool La! Thank the Lord for His creativity! Glory goes to Him! - Amen!

Here's a list of conversionists:
David, Easter, Martin Luther and many more but most importantly JESUS!

The ~~devil~~ has no vision, no originality and no creativity!
So please do not blame the crooked world for being the work of the ~~devil~~
The World just got lost! So why not be light and salt of the world and bring them back to track!

2007-05-06T23:28:00.000+08:00

I want to send flowers everyday to God and to tell Him how much i love Him!
Lets send some shall we?

2007-05-06T01:27:00.000+08:00

Haha Here's my new blogskin..
lazy to mess with Dreamweaver le..
so short cut haha

turn the sapshotsable skin to
snapshot orange!

haha i like it and can change to any
theme i want according to what ever way i want!

Next theme: RED RAIN!

2007-05-03T23:54:00.000+08:00

I'm wondering

just wondering..

Why do people just leave
and leaving people behind to die?

Why are there worldly people so selfish
that the only thing that they can care about is
only themselves?

May their minds are deluded by the worldly
things and pleasures? Perhaps.. Perhaps..

I'm glad I am not greatly deluded by it
for I have a Father with me and He is great to behold!

2007-04-20T13:35:00.000+08:00

one more new ministry for meself:
Post production

so that makes 3!
hehehe i love to be in PP !!!

so 3 ministries are..
Cafe
Choir
Post Production!

2007-04-19T11:19:00.000+08:00

right now is break time in school(FYI: school started on Monday)
got a little nothing to do so i took out my laptop and
now i've started blogging haha

I'm wondering about the things i've done for this year
so far.. it seemed only yesterday that i was the quiet
introverted self that didn't want to put emotional
non-necessities and unknown of the rights of being myself.

But Since last year, i came to know the Father and Jesus Christ,
i start to see some difference in myself.
No longer so sad and feeling no rights..
but someone with good sense of confidence.
Someone who's always putting up a smile and
talking to people like not having the fear!
I LOVE THE LIFE THAT I'VE GOT NOW!!
And it's all thanks to God.. My Father who loves me so.

Now, i'm challenging myself to do more things
not only in school but also in church!
Got to reach to my fullest potential!
Got to accelerate!!

p.s: Change blogskin soon..
Switchfoot <3 hidden gospel band ( i think it's because the guitarist was from a Christian band)

2007-04-15T01:23:00.000+08:00

kohohoho!!

Yes it's been a long time since i have blogged..
been very buzy the last month on very interesting things..

Firstly, my first 2weeks and 1 day has been spent on
planning the Freshmen(Freshies) Orientation!
Very fun! Tried many intheresting Trial Runs like
Tour the school and playing bonding games!( waa.. can be CG gamemaster le!)
Also rehearsaled for the Finale item! Kiwi!
The Freshies were a good bunch of great and beautiful people!
I think we(Edwin, Nico, myself and especially Munir) did a good job
in bonding our freshies 0713!! (Love you all!!)

On friday we also had a great time together to go buy books
and went on a little outing at AMK hub and you guys went to bugis!
Wa.. We all should have another outing again to keep in touch..
i think there maybe a chalet next holiday.. but i not sure..
munir will plan i guess.. haha..

2007-03-18T23:00:00.000+08:00

it's sad to hear the we are bullied by
unreasonable landlords and christians.
Despising youth...
haven't they heard of this verse?

but we are good
as the Lord has commanded us to
love others as much as we love ourselves..

though we maybe bullied..
but we will hang on
for even if the world hates us
we will not be demoralized..
for e have God with us :)

so hate us all you want for being
responsive in services
giving respect to leaders and pastors
being teachable and submissive
loving God the way we do... :)

2007-03-17T01:52:00.000+08:00

today i learnt some very beautiful things
to be a child of God.

first to seek the prescence of God intensely.
meaning to say to really want and hunger the prescence of God.
To love God's company when He comes.

secondly to make serious sanctions with the Word of God.
gain insgiht on ow to be a better person.
The Word of God is like a mirror showing what's good character and what's bad character.
God's advice make you a better person :)

Thirdly Sons and not servants loving the House of God.
to love and take care God's house.
Ministries! BM! Gotta love them!
Show God that you are willing to look after and care His house.

The last most important one is to be willing to scarifice for God.
Show God that He is more important that the things that are on earth.
Show that you want Him more than all things of this earth.
love Him and Show Him you really do. As actions speaks louder than words.

This make me realise that there's somethings i am not doing but yet i keep
on saying that i love my God. I think it's time i really start to show my love for my God throught my actions. to be willing to do anything for Him and be commanded by the Lord of hosts! I will live my pride of tomorrow doing what God has willed and planned for me to do. That's why the music you're listening to is this. I love this music alot. especially since it's from D. Gray Man. XD

2007-03-16T00:18:00.000+08:00

i decided to change my tagboard back to cbox..
flshbox was giving me quite some problems so i
changed it back to good old cbox..
i'm never going to change it for something that
looks cool again..
cause cbox is already very good and there's nothing bad
about it...

toodles..

2007-03-11T03:40:00.001+08:00

(in response to 8th march entry in Gab's blog)

Sometimes i wonder
why people dislike my church?
is it beacuse of the way we worship and praise God?
(well i think it's great to worship and praise the Lord in anyway
be it hymns or rock music. everyone has their own way to show their affection to God).
is it because of the people?
if so why?
i know someone who believe our love and care are fake..
thinking that we are a bunch of drama papas and mamas..
in truth..
this someone i know i don't think she really caught the heart of my pastors
not building an altar for herself with God..
She says she still want to love Jesus but because of the issues..
she doesn't want to go back
constantly speaking neagatively, flaunting her array of vulgarities..
this make me sad to see her,
who was once on fire, stumble all because of issues in her CG.
now, a goth looking mud who spits vulgarites..
i can't stand each time she specks ill of the church and of the pastor

But no matter what be it my sister or father or even my mother
i will not run away from my God even if it's over such trivial matters
i will not let the ~~devil~~ get the better of me
i will STAND for my faith and for i know i'm not the right path,
with God and in church.

so are you with us or against us?

2007-03-11T00:37:00.001+08:00

Random thought

Let's imagine,
if you had bushy hair lets say like this:

you could
put stuff in it to hide like french fries!!

haha just a random thought.. XD
don't mind me i'm lame!! XD

2007-03-08T19:39:00.000+08:00

Note to self:

Gabriel's laptop beeps when you press it's caps lock key XD

i'm not sure why but lately i've been feeling
like i'm not contributing to the church :(
like i see so many things by people and what they do and all
instead of feeling inspired
i feel uninspired like having the feeling of not having done enough like what
they have done. :<
I'm also got the feeling of being stuck..
stuck like not knowing about my leaders
especially after my sister's resignation from being a christian.
This may have been the cause of the stagnant feeling that i have been
feeling.

I think this maybe the work of the naughty one who wants to destroy whatever
God creates. I think he is planting some negative thoughts in me till i can take it no more and leave the church like my sister.
Well D though you may have won my sister's heart but you ain't gonna win mine
and God will triumph over you in the end in my sister's and my family's hearts!!
So in the name of Jesus you better stay out of God's way!!
AMEN!

2007-03-04T00:29:00.000+08:00

HaHa..
i was not happy with my previous skin due to not getting what i really wanted..
so you could say i'm picky... blah bah... like i care.. >:P
i like to flaunt my fabulous ability to change my blogskin at will...
haha okay... Gotta stay humble! ^_^;

Anyway, this blogskin is inspired by this anime called D.Gray Man..
The anime is good... Exorcists using some Godly made weapon thingy called Innocence
fight the Millennium Earl's toys made from souls of the departed..known as Akuma.
got this sentence, 魂の救済(tamashii no kyuusai) , from the ending part of the show's trailer.

In a way, this anime gives me the impression that we as followers of God and with our faith go out in to the world to look for those who are willing to follow and at the same time saving sinners from the hands of the ~~devil~~.

Thus the birth of this skin haha...
Love this anime and love Allen Walker!

2007-03-01T01:19:00.000+08:00

A seed was sown 3years ago..
Watching a Movie made from a Gospel.
Though tried as my might,
Time was not right.
Till the time of arrival
to a place with the name of where God's Heart lie.
There, the seed that laid dormant, is watered and germinated.
With care from God's love and the nurture of the Holy Spirit
The little sapling soon grew to a tree fill with blooming flowers...

I will always love my God and my church.
I want to be that blooming flower that i have seen in a vision.
I want to rise up to be a leader to lead people with love and care.
I want my spiritual seed that a friend unknowningly planted to grow and bloom and produce fruit!

I will never run away from my Church nor my God not the Friends that i have found there
They are all very much valuable to all the things that are in this world. No one can take it away not even the ~~Devil~~.
I have unkowningly fallen i love with my God and my church.
My God,My Happiness, My Estacy!

All if a sudden I've gotten poetic..
But alls fair in Truth and God's Love... though sometimes it may seem not so..

2007-02-22T21:30:00.000+08:00

祺祺！
She's leaving!!!
She won't tell me why!!!
what am i going to do?
Help!

2007-02-22T17:29:00.000+08:00

Took the time to do a little bit of updating in my links section and yup yup la
got alot more people in there and that means more people's blog to go too la
hahaha... Enjoy yourselves!

3 paper to go over the next week! Argh!
don't like exams but no choice
at least 3 days worth of exams are better
than 2 weeks worth.. hahaha XD

2007-02-18T01:29:00.000+08:00

Hey All!
Happy Chinese New Year!!
Gong xi fa cai!!!

piff!

2007-02-17T01:15:00.000+08:00

you hurt me the most
but I'm not one most hurt
She's the one
the one in the bedroom
She's the one you hurt the most
You hurt her so much
Oh So much
and now she doesn't feel you
not even when you throw all hope of hers down
the dark dark drain
oh how you made her numb numb to the core
where she cannot feel you anymore
She just doesn't want to care about you no more
just doesn't want to get hurt anymore...

dad..

I simply don't care no more

Each time i see you degrade mum with all your
knifes, Making a mess of what we've done
you who think of how great you make yourself feel
inferioriating everyone around you
leaving scars on us all over

i simply won't care anymore

you can carry on playing the game you
oh so love to play
but in the end i know you will be the one
to leave us all behind

I'm letting go of the ribbon that is of you
no longer will i spare a thought for you
you hurt us all so much
each making us all go through this game over and over
you and your spiteful pride.

no longer will i stand for this
if we all just let go
it's okay you can leave
we won't be afraid neither will i forget you as dad
we can live on doing what we do
leaving you and your spiteful pride.

just random typing to chase the blues away...
I only know that I've got a heavenly father who cares..
toodles! :)

2007-02-15T23:26:00.000+08:00

Today is one of those days that are pretty sad..
Today was suppose to be a great day i can go out to shopping with
my dear friends.
Intead my dad last minute say that it's my grandma's birthday.
That ain't so bad.. I'm willing to do that :D
It's my granny anyway I have a responsiblilty to be there for her birthday!
And it would make her glad to see me there to celebrate it with her :)

The whole celebration was alright except that my dad got angry with my mum
for asking about money infront of my relatives.
When we all got back from the dinner.
He scolded my mum for doing that..
Said some very hurtful words about
her being someone who loves nothing but nothing.

In a way, i think maybe my mum may not have asked for the remainers
considering that my dad is already quite aggitated.

But then, He shouldn't be so concerned about his pride.
Every events also pay the money.
Always letting others see that you're someone who can be very capable.
When you can't even have patience over the simpliest thing like
granny being slightly not being able to understand simple things.

My parents always quarrel over money.
Always about money.. Nothing but stinking money!!
I know that money is not the root of all evil.. but the hearts of people..
Like fire, money is a good servent but a bad master.
So what's so good about money?!
I know it's important, i know that without it we can really survive in the Singapore.
But is money really that important?
i feel so helpless everytime i see them quarrel
Each time how my dad degrade my mum with his words about mum.
Oh how i hate to see my sister talk about not getting what she wants from my mum.
I'm really helpless in this..

2007-02-13T20:48:00.000+08:00

i thinking of changing my blogskin..
yes! CHANGE!!!!
Raito >:P
( L rocks haha X} not that i'm crazy about him...
L's more sensable then Raito lor... >:)

:< still having that "i miss church and never want to let it go" Sickness!
DX waa....

Piff!

2007-02-13T01:25:00.000+08:00

Today was a blast!
SO NICE!!!
E zone reunion dinner at Marina Bay area!
we all went there for a little kite flying first so fun sia!
Lucky no thunder strike otherwise chao ta le! :(
then we all went for steamboat and grill so siok!
We cook cook cook like no tomorrow!
after mum mum we full le then we play around chat chat ( i go distribute candy!)
and so many other things as well.
Last but no least we all took a family photo!

我们一家大小团圆在一起吃火馃！！yummy!!

later on my way home... i started feeling sad.
That cause there's no chance of going to church this week!
Normally will confirm see my friends in church everyweek so i don't feel or worry about being lonely on weekends. But this week due to CNY, no church! T.T
This made me realise how precious my church and all it's contents(God, Pastors, E zone, E2, EVERYTHING!!) are!
i would never and i say NEVER will i want to uproot my roots and go to another church.
Cause if i leave HoGc, where else could i stay rooted?
All the things i ever wanted were given by God in this Church and i will never ever let go of what He has given so much of for something else.
I will build my own altar!!!

p.s: SOorRRYyy for the late entries were a little lazy about typing..

2007-01-15T00:43:00.000+08:00

Last week was just.... WOW!!
Pastor Joakim Lundqvist visited Heart of God church! My beloved church
for a school seminar organised by our pastors.
The sessions were mind blowing!!
Bring new revalation on every sessions.
tissues were used Quite ofthen especially the Second session.
Where Pastor Joakim gave the bell of the ,"Empress of Ireland", to the pastors.

it was a ship that sank on it's way from Canada to Great Britain.
The story tells of about 112 Salvation Army youths died for the sake of those who were
on that ship with out a life-vest. They gave up their only hope of survival for the sake of the
The unsave people who was on the ship without a life-vest.
Especially of an account by a 30 year old man, saying that a girl gave him her life-vest.
But out of his pride he threw back to her.
but she threw it back to him say " take it! i will die better than you!" With knowledge that she will go to heaven and if she died but not the unsaved man.
such servant-heartedness!! That's truly what Christianity about. To love God and to love others! - Amen!

it was an impressive week and i'm ready to take my school for jesus! Starting with my communication skills presentation on tomorrow! I"M ON FIRE!!!!
-AMEN!!

p.s.: Any of the HoGc brothers and sisters who are reading this...
Pastor Joakim is wikipediaed!!

2007-01-10T08:14:00.000+08:00

Z.Z
i feel pretty tired lately...
got curious about chocolate fondues and
their costs in restaurants that serves them and here's the results:

Haägen-daz:
$34.90
Should be suitable for 4-6 people maybe
Anderson's of Denmark:
$17.90 ( couples set )
Basically for 2~3 people
$32.90 ( family set )
Basically for 4~5 people
Chocz:
$23 to $25
for the milk chocolate fondue
$25
for the dark chocolate and the white chocolate
Max Brenner chocolate bar:
$20+ ?
read from others that it's 20 bucks plus for a 2 person worth

hehe please let me know how much is the fondue at Max brenner chocolate bar...
much appriciated!!

2006-12-21T23:30:00.000+08:00

いただきます！！
It's 4 days to chritmas!!
Yippy! Gonna spend my very first christmas with friends!!
The past 2 weeks were great!

VBS was very appertaizing! Got my radicalism back! [Watch out dad! i'm going to corner you
till you have no where to say about my radicialism for God!]

Pastor Lia's revival meeting were deliciously reviving!
Gotta Build my alter!!!
Be part of the BIG WAVE!![surf's up dudes!!]

Pastor David's Sermons were truly a great portion!
So Interesting!
Global Dimming![both Natural and Spiritual Sia! Beware!!]
New light on the Parables in the Gospel!
I want to be a good seed and not just a good fish!
Don't let the tares and the harlot ruin your spiritual walk with God!!

Yum! What a soulful spiritual treat it was! I WANT MORE!!!
ごしょさま！

2006-12-11T19:26:00.000+08:00

今晩輪,
This is my new skin. Featuring Yagami Raito of DeathNote.
been watching this anime recently along with my 2 other favourites.
D.grayMan and BLEACH hehe..
Not going to blog much this week.
Tests and VBS are coming up yups!
さよなら！

2006-12-07T08:28:00.000+08:00

みんなさん　おはいよございます！
few words to say...
Tired..
Common tests are coming
Great Church activities are crashing with nasty timeslots, School and
Silly Dad's objections
(reduced to lying again "School activites.." He hates the word church and
does not want to know anything concerning it.)
I WANT TO SLEEP!!!!!

New Skin's coming to this blog so watch out!
おやすみなさい！

2006-11-17T16:57:00.000+08:00

Okay i shall make an entry today..

today took an experimental bus ride to the church today.
Not bad took 1 hour for me to get from Yio Chu Kang to Doby Ghaut by 162.
it's quite fun and the thing is i slept throughout the whole bus ride and did not move my mouth throughout the ride( sleeping on the bus - duh!)

On the way to church i met my ex-classmate from secondary school with Kawa.
Then a revalation iht me. In the class, i was the first one to be touched by God in HoGc.
Now, my classmate's touched too. So Cool Sia!!

Yup, very nice sia!!!
one last thing... Hope is of the Mind and Faith is of the Heart... God is for the soul and life...
Yea!!

BLEH!

2006-11-09T12:35:00.000+08:00

Yos,
Yea i haven't been blogging lately hehheh (no one's watching this space anyway so it's like i'm typing to the cyber air to see..)

got no thing to say
new school semester more fun and more indepth computer brain understanding
this semester doesn't have much design as last semester though.. but Java so far is quite fun and database fundamentals got lots of storage to make tables haha... maybe if i were to be CG admin i'll use Microsoft Access to store all the attendence haha.. but then again it would be difficiult for other people to read it haha.. oh well..

got nothing to say liao haha gotta go gett back to manga reading CLIMAX!
666satan..

2006-10-24T23:05:00.000+08:00

haiz..
Not being able to go for HoGc's overnight prayer meeting, i feel kind of left behind as all my almost all of my CG mates have risen one level higher in prayer.

Reason because of this is because my dad doesn't allow my sister qiqi and i to go for it. He says that it's not safe as he don't trust the church. I'm not blaming him for this as he is my dad and he just wants to keep me safe.

I just feel left behind and sad..that's all..

Kamisama, i love you and wish i could always be soaked in your precence.
Lately, i haven't been able to finish my prayers lately, must be due to because i get tired easily nowadays.

~No videos to put for this entry, gomenasai.~

2006-10-19T16:47:00.000+08:00

I haven't been blogging lately and my holidays are over now and school starts.
My timetable is very pretty good despite starting early at 8, i get to finish my lessons aorund 3-4 in the afternoon haha and that's good rather than 2 long draggy days and 3 super relaxing days.

I did quite a number of things in my holidays. Firstly i got Rebekah, my church friend, Addicted to Audition haha!!! I'm SO evil! HAHA.. I also did my most favourite hobby when i'm on holidays, and that's read mangas, watch animes and listening to Anime OSTs and their songs.

the lateest one i finish is Air Gear. Man i totally like it!! It makes me want to fly too! Here's the MV for It's opening song! It a great song i tell you haha..

Haha.. it seems that i like to but videos into my blo lately haha XD

2006-10-05T17:20:00.000+08:00

i would like to share this video cos it's vert touching to some especially to those who saw the entire series ( it's 51 episodes and it's movie plus all it's Original Video Animation[OAV]) of Full Metal Alchemist also known as FMA. Enjoy!!

bleh..

2006-10-03T00:28:00.000+08:00

Great week!!
Lazy to keyboard it in detail
Fell in LOVE with a wacom table!!! >_____<

This babe is so beautiful!!!
I wanna own it!!! It's price is also very beautuiful... SG$729.00 without the mouse!
and that pretty little grip pen mouse is SG$110.00!!
Wow.. lots of savin' to do.. and i really mean LOTS!
Well, time to save if i want to own one..

2006-09-30T23:12:00.000+08:00

HAhaha Haiyo...
Thursday and Friday were very specials day and Thursday was the day that spark the end(well almost) of my insecurites. It started in the morning before i left the house for work. I got scolded by qiqi(She has her little morning tantrums) and felt discouraged and condemned meself a little about how i am not good enough to be a leader. After work i received an sms from Rebekah about a leadership training with her and Jackson. Wow! How fast God responded! He rebuked me for thinking that i'm not good enough. Jackson was surprised when he heard it and said that this choice just came into his mind.

Wow!! God really work wonders. I'm Glad that i've got a Great God like Him and i happy that i did not back slide despite there were temptation due to tireness. However, i'm a loyal person i'll stick to something for the sake of everyone else as i don't want to break my CG's hearts, Pastors' Hearts and above all God's heart.

Yesterday Rebekah and i had a Great time playing games at PC Bunk. I got her hooked on Audition! Asiasoft's latest Dance Game.AUDITION!!

Interested as well? Go to Auditionsea.com and start dancing!

2006-09-26T17:40:00.000+08:00

i found this trailer about revival in America hope you enjoy!

if you'd like to visit this movie's website
http://www.jesuscampthemovie.com

2006-09-24T21:06:00.000+08:00

I'm not sure why i've been feeling some what like when i was back in secondary school again..
I feel like i don't feel i'm trusted it like that sort of everyone seem to be sharing a little bit of themselves to the person they give space to, not including the leaders. Also i do feel a little bit exclusive and forgotten. I don't mean my church leaders, team leaders and group mates are neglecting me but more or last i feel detached from something now and is independent(sort of). Sometimes i kind of think will it be just like anyother oridinary friendships that i'm going to have like in secondary school?

Perhaps i think it's got to do with something about my self not being BIG-hearted. That what qiqi told me when i told her about this and was discipled by her( though we are blood sisters, we are also spiritual sisters, we help each other to grow spiritually). I don't go the extra mile for the people around me she says. Not truly understanding people and through this, i exlcuded myself and think the world excluded me, thus my introvert self is formed.

Sometimes, it's tired to really push yourself to get people to know you as well as it takes a large amount of courage too. I admit i'm not bold, in fact i'm equivalent to the chinese term " shuo tou wu gui", a coward. However, i know that my life now is different from the life before i was found. I think i want to make it a point to people that i am available, i want to earn your trust and i know Jesus and my spiritual family will help me to be a better person.

This weekend, Pastor How spoke about being in a ministry, doing your part in serving and be yourself, an Original and not a Photocopy. I decide to call up my cafe cap'n and yang xinyi(My Building Management Agent) for duty and i'll try to be myself more and get more DISCIPLESHIP(erm.. ALERT?! I've haven't been gettin' any discipling lately is there something wrong that should not know??) to improve myself, starting with trying to be BIG-hearted..

2006-09-24T00:27:00.000+08:00

Lately, for the past 2 weeks i kind of get this feeling of
not being trusted...
insignificant..
Little unwanted feelings that i had when i was leading a purposeless life..
although feelings like that were around when out with my friends..
it was not heavy and lingering... Parhaps God was in someway
making me feel better than i was hahax..

I'm Glad God chose me for 2 Thessalonians 2:13-14 explains it all

13 But we are bound to give thanks to God always for you, brethren beloved
by the Lord, because God from the beginning chose you for salvation through
sanctification by the Spirit and belief in the truth, 14 to which He called you
by our gospel, for the obtaining of the glory of our Lord Jesus Christ.

So i say this my dear non-christian friends, when someone you know who is a christian invites you out to his/her church, you know God is preparing you for salvation. So don't turn it down take it up 'Cause if you don't, who knows how many people that God prepared to win over through you are not going to be saved.

2006-09-23T01:04:00.000+08:00

MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!
At last i achieved what i wanted the most!!!!! Hahaha...
my new blogskin.. is simply smashing! 'Cause if you noticed, at the bottom of my navi. bar as well as my journals bar.. you'll see the curved rectangle's end!! YEAYEA...!!
What's more this time's blogskin is based on an English song called Tonight Tonight Tonight by Beat Crusaders(the music you're listening now!) as you can see the chorus lyrics are all over the place hahaha...

Blogging short.. Sleeping soon
By the way, my Exams results are here and boy izit it smashing!! 2 DISTs, 1A, 3B+s and 2Bs with a GPA total of 3.550 also i got the elective i wanted, Japanese Language 1. God really is a Loving God!! LOVE YOU, JesusY!!!

2006-09-15T23:56:00.000+08:00

Tonight was the worst of all the shifts i ever had in my 2 years of work at York Hotel.
The shift started out just fine. Did a little quiet time before going to out to work. Praying of a great evening and then out to the resturant to start.

Employer then said that i'm to go to one of the banquet rooms to work. Here's a little introduction to what i have to do at work. I am to just clear the empty plates and bowls from the customers' table and serve them water and take their orders as well. So everything started fine and was great dispte that it was by myself. Then i got worse as more customers came in to dine.

In the room, there were two tables one of which sat a group of elderly people who were catholics. The table on their right (my left), sat a group of people with a particularly odd uncle. both were dining enjoyably until the group with the uncle were about to leave when the uncle started to speak to the group of catholics. They chatted quite well then suddenly started to talk about religious things.

the odd uncle then spoke ill of the methodists for smashing his little collections of things like a buddha statue and a little kite or somethingy from Japan or Korea. I was around them when i heard it and wanted to tell the uncle that dispite the action was not very nice but he should understand that in one of God's 10 commandments which is one of the most important cos CHIRSITANS HAVE ONE GOD AND NO OTHER!!! So that means NO IDOLATRY!! That uncle spoke ill of the methodists!! Though i maybe from a different denomination, i can't stand that and i couldn't stand up for them 'cos i was working and won't want to lose it too. Then that uncle spoke ill of MY DENOMINATION!! He said that stuff that my denomination believe in is bullshit!! BULLSHIT!! I felt very discriminated!! having heard that right in front of my face.. i nearly cired in front of my colleagues in the kitchen and still feel sad about it too.
Luckily, that uncle left and before i had a chance to talk right back at him.

2006-08-30T18:57:00.000+08:00

Had this for lunch yesterday.. Nice ain't it?
It's instant mee goreng with Seaweed and Sesame dressing :P
YUM!

saturday wacky

2006-08-26T23:56:00.000+08:00

Discipleship is important for a christian. It is where we being christian babies grow to be big little kids and into teens and to be great reflectors of God. That's one of the things Pastor How preached today. Observing the traits of your leaders and pastors is also disciplship.. Listening, asking questions and answering them is another way too. So GOTTA HANG OUT WITH YOUR PASTORS AND LEADERS!! -AMEN!

There's also 3 behaviors we should avoid and they are defendsive and offendsive and fragile. These behaviors will only draw people away from discipling you and thus you becoming a bad person and dropping deeper in to the devil's abyss. We also must be transparent and open. Don't hide away the REAL you let people see the ugly, hurt,depressive or whatever of you becuase that is the only way where your spiritual family will help you in character building, bring you to a whole new and of corse better you!! SO be yourself! Don't hide away your true self in the darkness where the evil one can take advantage of and stumble you in the end.

Today i felt pretty tried and felt like as if the poeple around me don't care about me. By the way, this is one of my insecurities and i told beckie about it haha my confident, yea and my dear readers know it too haha... however, i did not let the deceitful destroyer to take over me. I just tag along to whoever i wanted to spend time with like Gina, Jeremy, Jackson, Feng Xu, and some others too. And at the end, it cresendoed to a crazy chase with Jeremy running from the center cart of the MRT to the tail portion which was fun and stupid by the way... haha.. Let's do it again next time Jeremy!!

Oh we took a lift to the trian platform hahaha..

OH.. Jeremy ish so cool haha.. in a lift that is..

End of exams..

2006-08-25T20:41:00.000+08:00

The exams are away and little lulu is out to play!!!
haha.. yes my exams are over.. how fast it came and how fast go..
Yesterday my dad has know that my and my sister qiqi has been going to church.
He allows us to go but on a condition that we don't get baptised by water until we are on long under their wings.
So the cat is out of the bag.. or dog for that matter since it was my bible which sparked the conversation.
Dispite allowing us to go, he did say some pretty nasty things about Christianity and Christians.
Like the usual things if you have read the previous entry about this issue and also he states that chrisitan children don't respect their non-chirstian elders, especially at funerals. It's not that we don't pay our respects, it's just we do it differently. Instead of offering insence and partaking in rituals, we serve and show concern for the deceased loved ones. If he were to be in their shoes and be placed in a christian funeral wake he would also do the same. It's cause we don't want to defile our God. He also said other nasty things about Christianity too. However, i did not get angry about it but instead try to explain to him instead. Qiqi helped too. And i felt better after the conversaton. Strangely though, dad did not get angry about it after the conversation.

Anyway found this cool flash game on the net. The instructions are in mandrin however. so i try to esplain it here:

W, A, S and D are direction contorl
J is attack and K is jump
to use lightning press J and K together but it consumes HP
press S, S, W and J to use MP

here's the link to the place to play it

2006-08-23T15:39:00.000+08:00

2 papers down (hurray!!)
1 more to go...
brief break now before i go prepared for the Final Battle!

God really blessed me finanically last sunday.
My mum, granddad and grandma all gave me money.
totalling to 80 dollars, the exact amount of my building fund and my tithes in June..
Wow.. God really is a loving God -Amen!

lazy :P

2006-08-19T20:55:00.000+08:00

I'm lazy to blog go here to read bah...

Z.Z

Exams..

2006-08-17T11:21:00.000+08:00

The exams are coming...
time to study...
No time to fool around y'all

Books and notes ar gonna be my best friends for the next 2 weeks..

D.Gray Man

2006-08-11T19:09:00.000+08:00

I just read great news!!
I can read D. Gray Man again only once a week though!!
This manga's amazing.. Must READ!!!
It's anime is also coming soon, 3rd October 2006 to be exact!
I simply must catch it when it becomes available...
Must Support it!! Support Allen Walker! WooHoo!!!

Here's a manga preview of it heh heh Click to read..

Want the full story? Go to timcanpi.org to find it haha..

Weeks come and weeks go

2006-07-25T15:50:00.000+08:00

Last week was a wreck. To begin with, it was my b'day week and i hate the present the Dievl gave me which ended me up in tears on wednesday. But, one thing God gave me was friends. He made me realised that there's some friends in my class woh care about my well-being. Yea, God is good.

The b'day celebation organised by my dear sweet and of caring friends was a smash. Though we all did it in a rush, it was good. Shurn got a blue T-shirt and Yanqi got something nice of which i forgot. The best part was when JasonSky presented me a guitar. I was so surprised that i became speechless. Indeed, they care about me!!!

Last week's Heart 2 Heart with Pastors was good although i was not able to attend all of it but i did attend the first one. Pastor How talked about being a Son/Daughter of faith. He taught us to be like Timothy. To be like-minded and care sincerely for others and many others of which i'm not clear of. What strikes me the most in that session was about Demas. In the bible, Demas backslided and was not mentioned in the bible anymore. Pastor How also preached that when you backslide, you break alot of peoples' hearts most of all the friends in your connect group. This mesages makes me want to keep running for God and not backslide. As it will break alot of my friends' hearts especially to the person closets to me. SO I"LL NEVER BACKSLIDE. YOU SHOULD ALSO NEVER BACKSLIDE!!!

little note to anon.-san who made some unique remarks: " i appriciate your criticism. The more you dislike, the more i love you.. just has Jesus loved the world so. -Amen!"

Tired but good

2006-07-15T02:06:00.000+08:00

Slept at 4 in the morning last night to finish up my personal development project.
Had to wake up at 7:30am later to continue and go to school only to find that in the midst of rush typing and printing, received a call saying that the first class is cancelled. Which goes to say, i'll be going to school for 1 hour before meeting yvonne outside school's shopping arcade.

Went shopping with yvonne to but some foldering paper for stars and a bottle for a extra special someone. Met Karen and jiexin at Macdonald's around Pras Besar complex to do the present till 5+ before accompanying Karen to the library and went home. Slept on the bus and missed my stop, had to take back one stop.

Mother got senstive again and this time cause was 'empty promises'. She complained that whatever we promised will sure be empty so mind as well don't promise. So what can i say to in the case that i'm nost sure that a certain event i'm going is gonna end? Don't come back?I shall ponder over this on how to make my sensitve mother happy.

Conference just then was great too!! WE GOTTA BE STRONG ELECTRICIFYING THEMOSTATS!!! wish to have more of it in the future! tired now ~ Sleepz..

Current things:
blue for top priority
pink for semi-priority

God,studies,CG - Positive attention for the teachers! STRONG ELECTRICFYING THEMOSTAT!!
Re-do/complete HTML project
Visual Basic project
Blogskin for E1 blog
Blogskin for Silvia
Blogskin for jackson

The Power of Prayer

2006-07-14T00:14:00.000+08:00

Today not only do i understand and know how to evangelise people, i also learnt how powerful praying are and last week i realise not praying is very disasterous.

Just last wednesday night, i did not have my quite time as i was up doing my project until it was very late in the night. On thursday morning, the first thing happened was having scolded by Qiqi for leaving the desktop computer on for downloading (she's got computer space issues). after that dad got angry with having lost his hand towel to the mysterious laundry thief and vented his anger on mum for having it lost and I felt guilty for having lost his towel for i was the last person to touch it. For the rest of the day was all right until i came back from school and from my meeting in church that did i realise that without prayer, life could go pretty disasterous! I shall never lack my prayer again.

Today however was a very good day and i can say no matter how short your prayer is, everything will work out sooner or later. Like this morning for insistance. one of the window grill was out from it's socket so i had to force it back in but was unable to. So, i prayed for a few seconds for the strength to fix it back to it's original position. Then i continued to try again but was unable to so i went to do some work on the laptop for some rest. Awhile later, when i tried it again, i was able to push the window grill back to it's original trail. Wow! indeed prayers are powerful.

So, no matter how big your problems are, there ain't one that is bigger than God. He is the Genius of all geniuses, King of all kings. Indeed there's nothing God cannot do.

Current things:
Blue for top-priority
pink for semi-priority

God and Studies - Positive attention for the teachers!
Re-do HTML project layout and complete it
Visual Basic project
Blogskin for E1 blog
Blogskin for Silvia
Blogskin for jackson

4th July 2006

2006-07-04T17:27:00.000+08:00

Had a greattime in school though a little tired dispite readjusting my sleeping time from usual 2am to 12-1am. completed Byran's blog, now waiting got him to come and collect - someone please inform him!!

Yesterday, granny made my dad pretty fasturated.
she was a little sick. Kept going to the toilet and staying there for a long time. all of us are worried about her. Told her to go see a doctor she don't want to. I know that she's old and her time to "move on" will come anytime soon but she doesn't have to force it to come nearer, all things will come on it's right time.

I think i will Pray for her everynight. In fact i do that everytime during my quiet time. I enjoy my time with God even though sometimes i do feel tired and don't want to do it but i would bring myself to do it and now it's become a habit!! I like to keep God company for awhile haha

Sunday was refreshing. Pastor How's talk on studying was sensational as always. It was great to know that intelligence was due to thinking and not the other way round. i think from this term on, i want to study harder than i did before and Glorify God. It doesn't matter whether my classmates think that it's disgusting to be holy and depend on God. If only they knew that how great it is to receive God's love and blessing every single day. no matter what, i will try to rub off some of my blessings and love that god has given to me to them. I'm sure it will one day move them for nothing's impossible for God - Amen!

Current things:
Blue for top-priority
pink for semi-priority

God and Studies - Positive attention for the teachers!
Blogskin for E1 blog - blogmaster me! hehe
Blogskin for Silvia
Blogskin for jackson
re-do HTML project layout
Personal development project
Visual Basic project - need help on varibles!

SUPERMAN!!!

2006-06-30T22:49:00.000+08:00

Look up in the air!! It's a bird! NO! It's a plane! NO it's SUPERMAN!!!

Just then my mum's compang had a movie treat so she brought as along to watch.. you guessed it! Superman returns! Yup it was a cool film. It talked about Superman returning back to Earth after having heard from astronomers that they found Krypton, which ended up being destroyed. When he cane back, only to find that he's sweetheart Louis lane is married and Lex Luthor is again up to something finanically sinister.

Well, can't tell you everything..if i were too then you guys don't have to go watch it already. My favourite sceen was when Superman enters the aeroplane that he just rescued from landing on the basball stadium. When he enters the first thing he does was to look at Louis Lane who was on the plane. The way he looked was like out of all the ladys in the plane he chose only Louis Lane, SO COOL!!!!!It's just Good film that you should watch hehe i'll give it a 4.9/5 hehe 0.1 for Lex Luthor not being evil enough haha..

Watch out for the actor who played cyclops in X-men and the director Bryan Singer was the director for X-men 1 hehe

26th June 2006

2006-06-26T08:24:00.000+08:00

It was very fun night on Saturday haha.. After service we all went to Burger king at pala Singapura for dinner and it was good althoughh me and qiqi didn't eat much. We managed to drag Shurn along with us as well. after dinner we all lounged around the the shopping mall until Jackson and Bryan left for thier own personal businesses. So we all went to Macdonald's and Sweet qiqi treated us all to 50 cents ice-cream and helped Shurn's friend to a survey. Then Jeremy said that he has to go to bugis to meet his dad and i had this crazy idea of walking to Bugis and from there we all would go home haha. It was a cool journey although most of our fun people are MIA but at least there was the Master of Fun around, Jeremy Chan, and we had great fun loitering round the streets of Singapore haha..Until the turn of the tide where we had to part but we will be back again!!!

By the way, This Blogskin 'pandora's box' is featured as the skin of the day for 24/06/06 on blogskins.com so HURRAY for fiddling hehe

21 June 2006

2006-06-21T14:26:00.000+08:00

Oh Time flyes pass real quick these days,
only 1 month before my birthday... wondering what my friends are conspiring for my birthday haha...
Stayed up late last night to work on an idea i had on making a blogskin with Dreaweaver and it works!By the way, you are looking at the product of staying up till 4 am to work on an idea. Turns out to be a success and quite fun fidling with the Dreamweaver.
Before doing this outragous idea i found some great webbies that have brush files for ps all thanks to Drogue Design's websites haha they have great designs and great Web knowledge.
So the 'Pandora's Box' is born, my first blogskin. May even consider publishing it on blogskins hahaa you guys deside :P

16th june 2006

2006-06-16T21:03:00.000+08:00

Doesn't it look yummy??

Jeremy Chan's Oreo surprise!

this yummy creation was done at Jeremy Chan's house after a CGM(connect group meeting) after dinner well should be supner cos it's like we ended late and had dinner-cum-supper instead. haha
by the way, i got into Cafe ministry haha yum~! Now i can but my creative mind to the test to come up with new dishes :P
also, D.Gary Man is a good manga where Exorcists(God's dark apostles according to the manga)go against the millenium earl(the devil) who is making akuma(weapons) to destroy what God loves most, us Man. You guys should give this manga a try! (hint hint webbie of next month)

Seed of a dream

2006-06-12T00:17:00.000+08:00

Yesterday's service was mind-blowing. It really affected me quite alot. It was about losing vision and the result of losing your vision that God has given you.
When we become lost from our vision, we begin to treat going to Church service like a routine. Minitering in a minitry as a chore. This result in losing your spiritual sight and hearing to God and become "professional Christians". It's like Eli from 1 Samuel. He was the high priest, who knows everything about serving in the House of God, but he does not hear or see spiritually the prescense of God. In the story, Samuel, who was serving God before Eli, did not understand about God. Therefore it is like being able to explain others on a certain thing but not doing that certain thing and doing that thing but not being able to explain others. In 1 Samuel 3:1-11, it talks about God calling Samuel, but Samuel did not know that it was God talking to him and thought that Eli was talking to him but he did not call Samuel. This happened for 3 times unil Eli precived that God was taling to Samuel so he tolded samuel that if it were to happen again, he should answer "Speak, for Your servant hears." This shows that Eli was able to understand God but was not able to hear God and samuel, did not undderstand God but was able to hear God. So WE NEED THE PESCENCE OF GOD AND A VISION!!! Also, by being young spiritually, we keep our spiritual sight and haering in good shape so as to be able to listern to God.

To those who are new christians, this message is saying that we should not keep turning back to our old religions and beliefs for confirmation for God giving us a new revaltion, to start afresh.

I think that's all i can remember dispite having taken notes(only half way..).

- dedicated to those who were not able to go for the service on 11/06/06 like Beckie, Jexin, Kesh and Shurn. Also to many other whom i did not mention.

9th June 2006

2006-06-09T23:11:00.000+08:00

Today i've discovered why i was in a wreck this week. I WAS CHURCHSICK!!
It's like being homesick but you just miss the Church. When i came to Church today, i sat down to one of the comy sofas and the next thing i know, half of my face started tearing and from then on i couldn't stop. It felt as if i had not come to Church for a month!! I came to Church today was for a follow-up lesson a so called 'tutorial' before you begin your journey with God and His Son, Jesus. -Amen!

After the lesson, i talked to Jackson about it and it's so good to let one something that's been preseurring you for nearly a week. I'm deeply grateful for God has given such caring and loving friends for i never had friends that ever included me in things and actually ever thought about me. I am truely deeply grateful for God. - Amen!

I just read "Our Daily Bread" online just then and it talked about having problems with the people around you like your friends and neighbours. In it said that we can't solve everything by ourselves but with faith in God and prayer and doing your part will things change. I also realise that in the Bible there are tips on people problems(Romans 12). Wow! God indeed knew thati had some trouble with my classmates and wanted to help me and advise me. You are AMAZING Dear Lord, i thank You. - Amen!

By the way, Just now's steamboat was great and i never had such great fun outings with my friends indeed i really must thank my friends for this wonderful dinner tonight! I also found out 2 things haha. Shane, who was with us at the steamboat, is actually one of my module mates! He is studying Graphic Design with my class. So Cool!! i can't wait to see him again on tuesday and wednesday 3 weeks later! Tonight, i also met Cher dining there with some of her firends! So cool. So coincidental! haha..

8th june 2006

2006-06-08T20:25:00.000+08:00

Today was a total wreck.
Got up this morning to do some computing and laundry at the same time. After finishing the laundry did my sister get up and the first thing she does is go all angry on me with the table being messed up to talking about people not caring about her.From my parents to her secondary school friends.she just blast for 45 mins. and when she was done, i had very little time for a bathe and had to take a shower instead and rushed out to school only to be late by 30 minutes as bus 13 did not come and had to take the train instead. In the end i was 20mins lat considering that the class starts at 1210, but i was alright i only missed the part about the mini project but thankfully, the lecturer repeated it again.

After that, went for another class in Block N to have a test. I was pretty eazy considering that it's an open book test and having revised for it last night till 0130. Finished the paper checked it twice and handed in, i turn on the desktop in frtont of me and slotted in my thumb drive to play "mario" which i placed inside my thumbdrive. Class ended and left the room. Just then idid i realize that i left my thumb drive there >_< my admin card as well.. shoot!!!

i pray that it's still there so i can claim it tomorrow and hope that i can get in if not i'll have to find Mr. Nai later to get in to get my precious.

4th June 2006

2006-06-04T22:20:00.000+08:00

It has been a great weekend.
Not only the sermon was great, Pastor Lia talked about the breath of God and how we should take prayer like being naturally breathing, taking in the breathe of God and exhaling the bad thoughts and sin that we have done. It is good to breathe in the breath of God everyday and i suggest everyone to do it.Later that night before i sleep, i can believe i 1/2 sleep while doing prayer and God seem to have heard all sorts of rubbish dream talk :S GOMENASAI GOD-SAMA!!! DX

2nd June 2006

2006-06-02T22:32:00.000+08:00

Today was a fun day.
My class and i all have a class outing. Sorry to my dear OGLs who weren't invited in was inpromptu and beside you guys should be in school then haha. Anyway, today most of my classmates and i went to Bukit Gombak's HomeTeamNS to have fun at Laser Quest. Only to find out that there ain't no slots for us and the only way we can use it is to have an NS member to book it for us otherwise is No Talk -__- i think the staff there lost their legs..

So, being unable to play Laser Quest, we went bowling instead. It was fun and exciting although i did not do will in both games but my second game was better than my first with a difference of 20+ points! Cool ain't it? I've always been lousy with bowling but it was fun having to bowl lousily with my classmates. It was fun and i still managed to coe home within my curfew with a strawberry milkshake in my hand which i had promised my mother.

And my dear sweet sister decided to give my dad a leak into our secret relationship with God only to result in me having a 30min lecture which goes on and on. Main thing is that He has some things against Christianity. One is that he thinks the people who are out there in the streets evangelising the public, actually wants more and more people come to their Church so as to gain power. Does he really think that Christianity is a power hungry religion? In fact, Christianity ain't a religion but a relationship with God in our lives. Another thing he highlighted is that religion is only used as moral support, seeked when only in times of need. He is like not really giving much of a respect to his own religion which is buddhism. So he is telling me that we only seek God only when we have only no one else to turn to? This would actually mean that God is the least important being you would seek in times of need. Wouldn't that make Him feel like He is only a subsitute? I've been in those shoes before and i do not like it alot! Where people would come to you last only when there's no other choice. Another thing he also highlighted is that we should stick to the religion we were born into and not be disloyal. Excuse me! Since when did God or Buddha or Other religious being ever told you that you're born into this religion, you stay in this religion? We are born into a world that has choices otherwise everything would be limited!! He also Critized about eternal life that God provides. That makes me feels sad that he said that. How God feel sia?

I think that's all i remember i do not want to get too involed into saying bad things about my father. May God for give my father for all the things he aid to night on the day of his judgement for my sake and my love for my father for i do not want to see him land in somewhere where the fire is never quanched.

1 June 2006

2006-06-01T20:53:00.000+08:00

What lovly pictures!! I actually look good in those neoprints!

What lovly pictures!!!

30 May 2006

2006-05-30T15:34:00.000+08:00

These past two days was good thanks to our Lord, the Hevenly Father, who has blessed us great with good amnay days. Last week i was in a total wreck, there's so many problems coming up and makes me feel as if i'm going to loose my faith on God. Fortunatly He did not give up on me and neither did i :) It must have been a test of faith but this time i'm not sure if i get it right.. haha..

Anyway, last weekend was a great! The Red Rain concerts rocked to a state where Kallang theatre toppled and went upside down haha.. I also got a chance to go to brother Shurn's Church, Kay Poh Road Baptist Church, on sunday morning too. It's good not the way i thought it would be. To all my lovly girl friends of my class whom i love, it ain't a date :P i got to get a good view on how his church works and it's quite different. Althuogh it's much more conservative than Heart of God church where all God-lovers jump like there's no tomorrow haha. What strikes me about Kap poh Road Bapthist Church is that the people are friendly and they kind of hold each other in respect althuogh they don't really show it but you can tell that they do.

A great thing about last weekend was that i met my ex-classmate, Wei He at the Red Rain concert on Saturday. Indeed, Singapore is really small. Small to the fact that my Churchmate, Ivan, could actually invite Wei He to the Red Rain concert. I also met my ex-form teacher's cousin in Shurn's church as well haha indeed God has decided for me and Mdm Peng's Cousin to meet although i forgot her name >_<..

It was a good weekend in the end and i hsve to go but before i go i like to share this verse with all my readers out there...

In God, whose word I praise, in God I trust; I will not be afraid. What can mortal man do to me? - Psalm 56:4

27th may 2006

2006-05-27T22:59:00.000+08:00

Today was a great day.. it's the day Red Rain Rocked at Kallang Theatre!!! Yea.. this day was a day we all rocked so hard till we turn thw hole place upside down! I even got a chance to see an old ex-classmate again. He was invited by Ivan, his class mate at the same time my fellowshipmate, to the concert! I do pray that he'll be interested to come to Church sometimes, so as to all my new friends whom i've met today! We had a fun time at suntec city too! Yum~

Tell me my dear lovly readers, especially those who are christians, how do you juggle the urge to serve God more and at the same time keep your mum happy and your dad from suspecting? Well, my mum seems to be objecting me from being active in Church. She even tries to stop me from going for those events like the Emerge Conference and the helping out the Church do stuff. I really want to be active in Church, but i seem to have sinned my mother for she helps me lie to my father about why i'm not always at home till late at night. What am i going to do? My sister as well wants to serve more but it seems that she can't too. I know my mother's worried about our studies, but she seem to have offended me. She says that she has a colleauge who's a diehard christian and she does not act the way that i do. She also says that God has somehow "snatched" her daughters away and that we should turn to Him for pocket money and go to Church and not home and school. You all know that we always Sinned in some way or another right? Well, she ask why do christians go to confess their sins when they know it's wrong in the first place? And that's what she hates about Christians. So is she saying she hate me too for i'm a christian?

I'm not sure what to do and i do not know how to do it but i do know one thing. God will know how to handle it for He loves me. He did not desert me last week when i was feeling down neither will He leave my prayers unanswered! I will look up to Him and keep bugging Him for help. I'm sure God will one day turn her view around, YES! I can see God making plans for her oh yes He will!! -Amen!

26th May 2006(b)

2006-05-26T22:33:00.000+08:00

It just hurts me so.. to see my mother and my friend Jing Yan not wanting to accept God. They say that they believe God but i fele that the way they are now. Their spritiual state is like they want to connect with God but they do not want to make an effort to get connect like they are expecting God to do that for them. It's just hurts me so.

It just hurts me so.. to see my my mother suffer they way she is. Always feeling so depressed each time a casual comment is given. Remembering once, a colleague of hers commented that her communication was lousy, and becuase of that, for a whole week when everyone can't get what she said, she would think of the comment and ay that her ocmment is lousy. I really want to help her but it's like she's refusing mine and God's help. When she heard that i wanted to be a chirstian and get to know od more, she had objection in her eyes but she does want to stop me but evertime i said i have to go for a Church activity she would say that the way i'm doing is worng and if i keep doing it she might want to talk to my pastor about it. Maybe it's because that colleague that insulted her was a christian so she's trying everyway to ask me not to be a christian. I do not want to see her get taken by the Devil when she goes on after her life. I REALLY WANT TO HELP HER!!!

It hurts me so.. to see my good friend Jing Yan, not wanting to excpet God and not believing int the words of the Bible. Isn't the Bible about the word of God? What more she says she believe in God but she is just not ready to take on the path of which i have taken just 1 and a half months ago.. I really do not want to see her in her life later on, too consumed by her worldly duties that she would one fine day forget about God and His will for her that she draws herself to a state of no return. I REALLY WANT TO HELP HER TOO!!!

My dear dear Lord, if you are reading this, please let these prayers be answer for i do not waant to see them get taken away by the Devil and receive worse death anyone would ever recive..eternal death. Dear Lord, my Dear Heavenly Father, do watch over them, fro my sake and ne day i pray i really do pray that they wouls come back to your arms just as i have. -AMEN!

26th May 2006(a)

2006-05-26T21:55:00.000+08:00

I feel so spent today..
So may things are trying to stop me from doing the things i want to do for my dear heavenly Father. First of all my mother and now my friends whom i've invited to the RedRain concert tomorrow.

My mother tells me that i'm too busy nowadays to be spending time with her. She says that this is not the way. What she meant is that i shouldn't be so active in Church. I just want to help and be active as much as i can ut it seems that the way i do puts my mother in the way between my secret and my father. For he does not know that i've let God into my life. She has to tell a white lie evertime i'm going for a church activity in the weekday or weekend. My actions put my mother on the line from my slightly tyranical father. What shall i do dear Lord? -Amen!

Another are my dear friends whom i love so much. At first when i asked them if they are interested to go for the Red Rain concert, they said they would but as the event approaches, more of my friends are unable to come and especially one of them, said she wouldnt come because the other two of my friends are unable to come. Now, i'm left with one friend i pray that she'll be able to come. I'll pray to the lord about it.

I know i can rely on God for He has helped me so much especially last friday, He won't desert me now and He never will. I have faith in Him that He will make things right again. I just need to know how from Him so thati would follow what He will me to do. I'll i need now is to pray and pray.. and pray. Pray that my mother would one day come to light about God, pray that one day when i invite them to church, they would br interested to go. All i need to do is pray with all my heart for i believe God will make it better. -Amen!

25th May 2006

2006-05-25T08:59:00.000+08:00

HaHa.. it's been very fun and may i say..Defiant days of the weeks? I was helping the Church's decor team by making up poles for the up coming most exciting concert this month that we are all waiting for RED RAIN!!!

I helped by, making "poles" and stiching and tying them up with strings. Making them up into 2's and 4's. It was quite fun considering the ammount of time we were spending. haha.. and last night while going out from the church, the IT or someting team came back with all our equipment as well as RED RAIN's equipment.. YEA... They've landed in Singapore already hahaha.. i managed to help them carry them up to on the lift which kind of reminds me during my old band days in secondary school. After a peroformance we had to retuen back to school and helped them carry the instruments up the stairs and especially us girls, we carried some heavy stuff like the tuba, chimes, marimba, etc on high heels!!! Yea!
haha i'm glad i was able to help them carry some stuff back up to church before going. Ending up, getting grounded for the rest of the week. Today and tomorrow i'm not allowed to go there, so sorry guys, i can't go for CG meeting tomorrow.. Kena grounded. Oh well, a nice price to pay for carry either Micheal Turner's or Steve Turner's or Dave Francis's guitars haha..

19th May 2006- the day God's love was GREAT

2006-05-19T23:41:00.000+08:00

Today was an eventful day to me it began this morning when i have forgotten many things like wearing my watch and accessories but the first thing i remembered was my Bible. Immediately, i took the lift back to mu house and opened the door in haste and rushed to my bed grabbed the bible and place it in my already full-of-things bag. and continued my journey to school to school. At the bus stop, i reemmbered my watch but did not think that it was important as what matters was my Bible was with me.

Then today at Church, i felt God's prescence so close than it was before and i cried more than i used to. Probably on tuesday i felt the connection between me and God sort of disconnected and it made me feel sad. Then when i watched the video, Pastor Tommy Barnet talked about the connection with God can somehow get disconnected which made me think "could God had done that to test me if i will try my hardest to get back to Him?" Maybe, and i think i must have passed the test for i felt very grateful today when we were worshipping and praising. This feeling was more solidified than it was before and i cried for that relief that i felt from Him. That feeling was like beyond but you can feel a sense of peace and calm, like you feel that everything is alright and you have nothing to worry about. I like that feeling and i hope to have that feeling more as i continue to learn more about my relationship with Jesus.

Jesus has so much to teach me through my pastors and my spritual brothers and sisters i shall slowly learn and get myself aquainted with the things i learn like this verse from the song "Remedy" sung by Jason Mraz "When i fall in love, i'll take my time. There's no need to hurry while i'm making up my mind.." Yup, when i fall in love with God, i'll take my time to know Him better and there is no hurry for me to decide how i want to learn about Him..

By the way i managed to get the Red rain video onto my friendster page!! Yups.. i must remind that God is a very good Webmaster too if not for Him i would not be able to get that i simply must thank Him for His help..

18th May 2006

2006-05-18T23:20:00.000+08:00

Hey no worries everyone i'm alright now.. i'm have been trying very hard to connect meself with My dear Daddy and Big Brother Jesus and it did me real good.

How i did it? Maybe probably cause i started readin' this book i've borrowed from the Toa Payoh Library called " 'I Thirst' - the Cross - The Great Triumph of Love" it's all about Big Brother's love for us and all the reasons that he died for us on the Cross. The Bible also helped too and it renewed my energy to fight against those awful feelings. And it's a goos thing i recharged my batteries for my MP3 too otherwise i wouldn't be able to find peace on my way home or to school. Speaking to God also helped i told Him about that i have been feeling this way and needed help. The Help somesort of came from the chain emails that my friends sent me. When i read them, i just cried. I cried that feeling out and after prayer i fell into deep sleep and next moring which is today i felt so much better. So good that i even turn my radio loud in the morning and danced and sang to my hearts content while doing the laundry hahaha XD

yes.. i'm a little crazy at times when i'm happy :P

17th May 2006

2006-05-17T16:11:00.000+08:00

Haiz... i'm not sure why but these past 2 days i have been having feelings of inferiority and loss. It's as if everything i do doesn't give me the satisfaction anymore. like i'm back to my old insecure self of worrying whether i offend people or not.. even in the presence of my spritual brother, Shurn, too. Tried reading the Bible and listerning to songs to sooth that feeling but it doesn't seem to have worked really need some help here I AM EMOTIONALLY SICK!!!

Could someone help me be an emotional doctor?? I need emotional help!!!

14th May 2006

2006-05-14T21:23:00.000+08:00

Today is Mother's day i'm wondering what many of my dear readers did for their mummy dearest? Anyway, today i was out with my cousin on a short trip to Liang Court shopping mall to pass some time in a boring afternoon for i miss God and wanted to come to for service >_<. At Books Kinokuniya, i was browsing around looking for the English comics section. As i walked i slowly went into the Japanese section of the book store and on a particular shelf, something caught my eye. A Japanese bible of the old and the new testiment. Thinking that it may just be all full of Japanese words. when i opened it, i was suprised that it was like a manga! Manga refers to Japanese Comics. Immediately, i flipped the pages page by page and looked at the pictutres. Although the entire pictoral Bible was in Japanese, i could at least under stand what it was talking about. The 2 books soon satisfied my 'thirst' for God. I'm greatful for what our Lord has done for me for He somehow knew that i was missing His presence and refeshed me with those two wonderful pictoral Bible.

And by the way my sister Hui Qi A.K.A QiQi, has accepted Christ into her life just as i have. I'm Happy that i brought her to church yesterday in hopes that she will learn to understand herself and God more.

THANK YOU DADDY!!!

11th May 2006

2006-05-11T23:36:00.000+08:00

Shawn came back to school yesterday.He is doing fine and some of his skin got nipped awy by those nasty EVIL doctors(they treat their patients like human specimens)for rescearch. Just because Shawn caught a rare unknown virus years ago doesn't mean he like's being an experiment!!Anyway, enought of talking about nasty evil doctors, yeah Shawn got some stitches on his right arm and leg. Thinking of those stitches just reminds me of my gums. it got stitched before and it sucked very bad. All because of a KFC Zinger Burger.

A few years back then, i was out to lunch with my mum and sister at KFC and i ordered a Zinger burger as i liked the burger back then. Eating the first few bites were alright. Then... "CRACK!" i felt something in my mouth broke and i spitted out the pieces Zinger that was in my mouth and ran to the toilet to rinse my mouth thinking that ther may be bones in my chicken fillet. When rinising, i saw blood and useed my tongue to feel around my teeth and there was a sharp pain. What i felt shocked me, i felt pieces of tooth on the roof of my mouth. So i quickly told my mum and sheduled my school dentist to extract it.

On e day of the appointment, the dentist removed most of the pieces of tooth except for one part which got deep into the roof of my mouth that i had to go for a dental operation at the National Dental Centre to extract it. The dentists there dug and dug trying to get the naughty piece out of my mouth that they left a pretty big hole when they finially dug it out and stitched them back.

From that point on, i never liked Zinger Burger anymore.

By the way you should see this clip it's very cool it for the NTV Asia Awards 2006!!

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7th May 2006

2006-05-07T22:27:00.000+08:00

God really does do miracles no matter how big or small it is.
I really experienced today. It started that i did not have enough money to buy all 3 T-shirts for my little "Walking Advertisment" plan for school. I going to wear my Red Rain tees for the whole of next week to promote Red Rain. YEA!! I did not want to borrow money from my mum although she did ask me to buy Ice-cream for her but i didn't want her to pay me back. So, today i went to Church and bought only the Heart Of God versions only. During the service, i kept thinking about it and even went to the extend that i borrow ten dollars fron Jexin. But in the end, i decided not to for i know that i would not be able to return jexin the money. Then i returned the money to Jexin after the service was over. Moments later, Jackson walked with a black stuff on his hand and handed it to me saying " for your walking advertisement plan" i took it and thanked Jackson for it and saw that it was the T-shirt that i wanted but was not able to afford it. O_O i just stared at it and kept saying "God is SO COOL!!!! Yea, GOD is really really and i DO say REALLY cool. Yea.. Thank you God for gviving me the tee through Jackson.. If God was really around i would REALLY want to hug Him for it. It's like a Father giving a present for his little girl..X3

GOD YOU ROCK!!!

5th may 2006

2006-05-05T16:50:00.001+08:00

haha i changed back to my "Heavens of Mine" blog theme because my RedRain blog theme is not working.."Gomenasai Shurn-kun please don't come get me!!!" >_< The reason was because the pictures weren't working!! ARgH!! Exceed BandWidth !! ARgH!!

It's been a good 3 day after my dad THREATENED my mum. Dad still ain't speacking to us and it's okay we're not talking to him either.

Wednsday, there was Inet Club's Orientation. It was a good and Fun event except that i was the only lady there but it's fun haha to hang out with guys and for once really be yourself and not worrying whether if other girls are thinking that you are b*tch*ing around with the guys. As what matters is interest and not the situation. It's good 'cause it's gonna be on games this year haha.. and i'm interested in how games are made. yea.. i got to know some seniors of which some are OGLs(Orientation Group Leaders) from the Orientation like Shurn and Wilfred. haha *_*

Oh, and by the way i'm finially getting sick as well!! Yippy!! Now i can suffer with those friends i love so dear now and be sick together!!

2nd May 2005

2006-05-02T21:22:00.000+08:00

My dad just talk back at my mum again.
All she did was just make a phone call to him. My dad did not asnwer her call the first time so she called him again. He still didnt answer her and this time he switched off his phone only to turn it on again in the afternoon. Then just now, he said a whole lot of nasty things about my mum.He said things like " don't put ideas i my mother head!" "mother's own things i ownself bother no need you to bother. If you want to take the girls fine by me. i don't want them anyway.." and all sorts of other nasty things.but worse of all, he treathened that he would chop my mum to pieces if anything happens to my grrandma. Upon hearing it, i kept telling myself " i will study hard and make my mum proud and prove to the man whom i call "father" that i can do better than he thinks i can.

i do not like to way my dad talks to my mum ever since yesterday morning(read previous entry)...

1st May 2006

2006-05-01T21:49:00.000+08:00

What a good day to start May. I've only just wake up only to be scolded and nearly slapped by my Father. All because of the stupid word "yell".

This morning my Father was already not happy with my mother with some boiling of water reason and was already senisitive about everything which included why i stayed up late and wokr up late the next morning. For your infomation, i woke up at 9:30am which is good considering those who wake up at 10+, 11+ to afternoon. Father was looking for the nail clipper. So, Mother told my sister who was up then , "QiQi, please give papa the nailclipper before he yell". then Father scolded Mother for saying that he yell. In defence of Mother, my sister explained what Mother meant and that got him angry too as he shouted at her "do i need you to tell me how i should behave? If it this then don't regard me as your father." Hearing that, i immediately got up and explained that what Mother meant was that she was worried that Father would not be about to find the nail clippers and make a fuss about it. He then immediately, scolded me to and say all sorts of nasty things about Mother and tried to slap me twice and next thing you know he gave us all three the cold shoulder. I describe his sudden out burst of unstable behaviour like Menopause. One time nice and sweet then suddenly change to mad angry rage. I don't know but i konw that he cannot live without my mother and me for both of aid him with his almost every need from washing his clothes to helping him with his handphone.

Today, Shawn also got hospitalised. Yes it's true and it is due to his very naughty stomach giving him the problems ever since last monday. I did tell him go to see a dcotor but he didn't until only friday after school did go and see a doctor and was prescribed with gastric flu. Despite the medicine and lquid food, it got worse and he landed in hospital. That's really sad. I will pray for him until he gets good, better and best! But in the mean time, he will need to stay in hospital under observation and NO FOOD!!

26th April 2005

2006-04-26T21:38:00.001+08:00

Today's got to be the most boring day of the past two weeks of my NYP life. Would you believe that today i had 4 hours of break? Well, it's true since my Data Communications and Networking lecturer cancelled her lecture and i was stuck in school surfing the net with my dear sweet lappy.

I also changed my blog's skin during the break. Thanks to Shurn it finially worked after hours of braincracking last as to why it went out of proprotion. Indeed, he got Great knowledge on Web Designing. Some day, i hope he does get the chance to be a very well known web-desginer hahaha.. ED.

I went to Sakura Japanese Cultral Club's orientation jus then too. I was fun! I even won something from the games! a Full Metal Alchemist keychain. It was a good session and i met some anime buffs like myself too. I even met some of my colleagues, Xavier and Jolynn,too! We used to work at the York Hotel as waitors. The Club impressed me quite a lot and could win my heart over for it. So, Internet Club you better do something better than them if you want my participation hahaha..

22th April 2006

2006-04-22T22:19:00.000+08:00

I've got some pretty good and bad news.

I'm glad that my call to my mum in Batam got through and she's doing well there and would be coming back to Singapore about tomorrow afternoon. i hope her ferry would i arrive safe to the jetty tomorrow.

It is also sad that one of Kar Kar's(she's a very loving mother. God bless her so) sweet little black kitten went on to God's house.May He take care of her/him. How he/she pass away? Well, some driver, due to his/her ignorance, did not see the little one and in the end one for the car's wheel crashed the little one's body. Dear Kar Kar, nudged the little body. It's so sad to see a little one die. God do take that little one in Your Arms..Take of her.

19th April 2006

2006-04-19T21:59:00.000+08:00

Today, after lessons I went with Shawn to Books Kinokuniya to look at how much they sell the reference books that our lecturers rocommended. Overall, they were more expensive than the ones sold in our polytechnic's bookshop by $20.41. So, after looking at the "beautiful" price tags, we went to the library to look up on some books for our Digital Electronics Project. Most of the books there were quite informative but not the ones we were looking for so we gave up the scearch and went to Bugis to buy my first bible. The shop was at Bras Bersah Complex where there's 5 stories worth of interesting shops like a printing boutique to the Popular BookStore. We went to the one shawn recommended and i bought a bible for $15.90 with a 20 cents rebate. Was it cheap? Anyway, we did have a good time and when i got back home i nearly got scolded by mum for not telling her that i would be late. SORRY MUM!! Well, it was quite a good day actually and i signed my name on 3 CCAs over the course of 2 days of the CCA openhouse: Club Crawl. They are Internet Club, Kendo Club and Japanese Cultural Club. I'm thinking of joining Kendo Club and Internet Club but i'n not sure if kendo's on mondat and Friday or Wednesday and Friday at 6 in the evening. But Internet Club would be a confirm i guess it depends haha ED.

I'll go now but i'll leave you with some pictures our dearly beloved photographer, Karen has taken :

crazy guys dinning at Kopitam

Tour Guide: over here are the almost either goupr photo of the gang and on your left there stands a very distinguished butt of a "handsome" dude. :)

photo of a crazy senior and his 2 other crazy juniors

Another photo of a crazy senior(R!) and his 2 silly juniors

Some Pictures of ME and my new friends: Jeremy, Karen, Yvonne and Kesh!

Some FUNNY PHOTOS!!

17th April 2006

2006-04-17T20:38:00.000+08:00

Today's the first day of school and it was fun! It a blurrish sense that is. Half of my class got lost for the first lesson and ended up arriving late, but we did get to our destinations in the end.

For today, we had Internet Applications Development, Personal Development, Creativity and Critical Thinking and lastly, Digital Electronic Project. and within just one day i received to projects already and i'm glad that for the first one i can relate it to my grandma as we need to invent something for Creativity and Critical Thinking. For the second one though, it's a bit of a challenge 'cos we need to be in groups of 3 or 4 to do up a report on resistors,555 ICs and connections. That is not so bad yea but i have to do it with Angeline. I Think God may(i'm not sure if he really wants me to)want me to get to know Angeline better so he could have placed her with me and Venu. Well, that's nice and i shall not and should not habour any bad things about her because she's my groupmate now though she seems scary and hard to communicate with. As they say, alls well ends well, so i'll try to get to know her better even if she's too scary sometimes.

Oh, and yesterday, i got to know Shurn's church community. YEA!! I had load of fun getting to know so many friends like Jeremy, Yvonne, Karen, Kesh, and may others. We all seem to have one trait and that is being Crazy(Shurn included)! For the first time i was really myself and didn;t really have to bother about any doubts about how they would look me as. Indeed, this goupr of people have given light into my life just like God did and i guess it must have been God's will to have me blurred up and agree to go to Shurn's church and meet these wonderful people. Through this i also got to know Shurn and Shawn better haha..For this i must thank God for this special gift He has given me.

There's justo one problem though. I can't really let my family know about this especially my father as he is pretty sensitive about religion if he were to find out that i became a christian he may just well, hack me to death of something. So, how can i go for service and not get caught? Well, i thought up a plan that i would study till my brains popped from Monday to Saturday and Sunday's the only day i can go out with my friends unless something important comes up and i am unable to go so i'll try to go as much service as possible. I hope i can keep this secret till i'm 21 where i become a full fledged adult and can decided for my self what religion i want to take up in and hope that my parents would accept my decisions as an adult. Wel, i might as well stop her cos i've got a headache >_< and my eyes are droopy till nexttime byes!

10th April 2006

2006-04-10T18:08:00.000+08:00

Haha, my notebook came today and i using it right now..serveral connection problems though, i shall copy this entry into my notepad just in case. The weather's also not very good 'cos i see lots of ligihtning and thunder. Maybe that's one of the ocnnection problems.. hmm.. anyway, i had most of my network problems solved mostly by myself and my aunt, my mum's colleague, Joseph my school mate who used to be my classmate and of course my class's OGL, Shurn haha..

Now, i'm currently happy about my laptop and i can really say it's mine hahaha.. then i'm able to spend longer time on my pc at night and my parents won't even know unless they enter the room and see me using it that is.. haha..

i just read slash's blog and thank you very much for that comment haha:D and if anyof you OGLs or MIT 0613 classmates want that you can go to slash's blog for the photos. Well i got to go now and this wireless connection has failed me twice while i'm writing this entry lala bye..

9th April 2006

2006-04-09T00:36:00.000+08:00

It's been quite long since i last updated, about a month i guess.. well i sum up all of it then hehe.. well i received my appeal approval letter 2 weeks ago and was elated cos just 2 days ago i received my Republic Polytechnic's letter on the appeal saying that my apeal was not successful. Thank You NYP!!! I won't let you down!!

Just 4 days ago, i went for this 3-day orientation day-camp and i was supurb participating it 'cos not only did i get to know my classmates better, i got a clearer view of trigonometry, an A-maths topic. also, i go to like one of my OGL (orientation group leader) of which the name i shall not tell in case he is reading this. and i took some picture with my OGLs and some of my class photos are with 'slash' at his blog if any of you wanna look you can go see under links, word for it would be 'sailesh'.

Not to forget, on the first day of my orientation, Tissue's kitten ,one of my beloved stray kitties, passed away. May God bless it with a peaceful return to His house. Dear kitty love you always... T.T

and here are the photos i won't say more cos of writer's block right now and i'm DAMN Color in this air-conditioned room. byes..on and to the OGLs reading this please scroll my radio to the one that says 'Good!' that song's dedicated to you ^^

ME and the Pretty and CUTE Nanny Sha!!! :3

ME and Bery Nice,Bery Funny (plus kawaii!) shurn X3

ME and dear nice Sailesh :D

THE BEST OGLs I'VE EVER MET!!!

7th March 2006

2006-03-07T20:59:00.000+08:00

24 days to go.. 24 days to the decision of whether i can go on studying in a polytechnic or go 'daringly' join the navy and be a weapons specialist. Why is there such a mess you ask? Well, it's all because i held too much expectations of my results and thought that there wouldn't be people going to places where i want to go. Only to find that i can't get in anywhere. So, you can technically say that i've got no where to go. Having found that out, me and me mum went to appeal for NYP(nanyang poly)'s MIT(multimedia and infocomm technology) and RP(republic poly)'s biotechnology, biomedical science, pharmaseutical science and new media. Now i'm awaiting for the appeal results. and over these few days i've been caught up with anxeity, and depression. My mum also got sick from it and my father literally gives me the cold shoulder. Haiz, all i pray now is for me to get a seat in NYP or RP and make everyone happy especially my mum who's not feeling well right now. To those who got a space, count yourself lucky..:)

16th feburary 2006

2006-02-16T09:05:00.000+08:00

I was just saved by a near death experience. These past 2 weeks were like a roller coaster ride. First was the annoucement of my O level result, then follow by my stupidty and finally, topping all off my sister's recklessness. My god have mercy on my soul, i'm almost going NUTS out here..@_@

Anyway, it all started last firday when i got my o levels result. I was worried like everyone else and wanted it all to quickly and swiftly pass.When it was my turn, i told my Co-form teacher,my form techer somehow imgrated or something, not to let me see my results and she agreed. Instead, she told me that i got a B3 for english and a B4 for P.O.A(principles of account. i was surprised, then i just taked the paper and when back to my seat and observed my result slip. First thing i saw was a 'seven'. It was my combined humanities, well it goes to show that i did not really put an effort into it and my additional maths was flanked (F9). Besides these failures, i mangaged to pass the rest with good grades, science B3, and elementary mathemathics B4. The total points i got was 20 and was eligible for almost all of the courses in the Polytechnics. That was really good really, and due to that did a make a fatal mistake. I was so happy that i didn't really fully submit my internet form for the choice of courses. No wonder my parents keep stressing and thanks to MOE's(ministry of education) phone call did i realise my mistake that could cost me my future.

But that was just the tip of the ice-berg. After that had happened, a few hours later, my sister called. She lost her keys. i got so shocked that i was speechless and worried. I kept thinking "how am i going to tell mum and dad??" and " what should i do??". I kept worrying and worrying. Until, my sister came back did i discuss it with her. In the end we decided that i would accompany her to the bus stop to look for it tomorrow morning. This morning, we went to the bus stop and scearched for it. Then a nice kind lady approached my sis if she had lost a bunch of keys and we said yes. The lady guided us behind the bench. The benches on the bus stops had a high backing to prevent the rain from splashing at the benches. there si took something from the top of the board and haned it to my sister. It was indeed, my sisters keys.. Hooray!!! We were so damn happy Very happy. And now i'm blogging this to say that in Singapore, there are some nice people around to help those in need and one must never forget them.

16th januaray 2006

2006-01-16T10:07:00.000+08:00

well, everything's gone rather smoothly this month but my only worries are my results from the o lvls and those defenceless cats living out in the streets getting caught by pest busters.(pray them save!!) Lately, i'm at my cousin's friend's house helping her with her annual job of making pineapple tarts and selling them. it's quite fun as i get to smell those piping hot tarts coming out of the oven to be cooled before packing them into containers for sale.

another thing happened to me on Friday the 13th. To most this day ain't so good but to me it was a very good day although it has it's own bad events. One of my precious street cats, Ah mao, was nearly gonna get caught by those pest busters. that stupid cat was sitting right in front of the cars and thank god the man in there was sleeping. so, i quickly shuu away that cat into the bush.. lucky Ah mao was green in color and the pest busters couldn't see him among the bush that he didn't get caught. I was DAMN happy when i heard my mum say that she saw Ah mao at the basket ball court that night(he lives there!). I hope today, he is clever inough to go to sleep ue to the hot sun otherwise, my efforts of keeping him alive is wasted.. as the govt. now states that all stray cats be culled unless they are sterilised. Oh God, keep him safe dun let him become like my dear sweet PiPimao!! >_<

28th December 2005

2005-12-28T16:13:00.000+08:00

Me and my bloody big mouth cause me to be not very liked by my colleagues and new friends..It caused me so dear that they have to complain about me for being talkative and accused me of being late, of wihich i did not.. now i am so damn FED-UP About this place that i've decided to QUIT this after this sunday if things do ot get any better and shut my DAMN BLOODY MOUTH from henceforth. This is to stop me from being so curious about every little thing going on around me and behind my back..

I'm rpobably the most irritating and nosy plus bossy person they have ever met so i decided for now to quit after this coming sunday..and i shall never bother about other people's business anymore.. 'keep it to meself'&'shut your damn bloody trap' also i must remember this 'everyone's just trying to be nice to you..' Maybe January on i'll go take japanese basic classes.. and not work.. they don't need me anyway, they NEED Capable people like 'k' and 'd'..

25 december 2005

2005-12-25T23:03:00.000+08:00

Wow, so fast and it is 5 days before 2006..and these few days i've not been online as i was out working as waitress at the York Hotel's White Rose Cafe. It's quite fun working there as there was good colleagues there like 'papa' and 'Je'(keeping names confidential here!)

Dispite all this good people, my aunt has to spoil it all. She picks on me constantly, makes a fool out of me whenever i make a mistake and worse still tell it to all the other waitresses. I really don't like her doing these things 'cos it kind of makes me feel as if she wants to me think that i'm rather inferior compared to the other part-timers that are about my age. I Think she is being very biased towards me everything i do always she will think that will sure crop up. Then if really crop up, she will not let me do it anymore. She makes it until like that then i mind as well don't go to work even better no jinx walking around the guest make trouble, unnesserary detours and stupid mistakes. She even called me stupid for not picking a ten dallar tip, hey i i can choose not to take the money right? I HATE PEOPLE TELLING ME WHAT TO DO AND WHAT NOT TO DO..AND CALL ME STUPID.. So i 'stupid' la, 'baka' la, 'buboh' la, mind as well i dun work.. each time i hear them say me or call me stupid hor i feel like i just want to drop my things and go home know, so DAMN angry.. i don't think even 'papa's' sense of humor can really humor me by then..

Although these things happen, i'm still rather happy to work there like especially on Thursday, i had a rather fun time with 'papa' and 'b' on a company dinner. The whole event lasted till 9pm and we had a full hour to enjoy the emptyness over a glass of wine and somw food yum!! I'm greatful for 'papa','K' and 'D' 'cos they really makes me feel better whenever i in bad mood due to my anunt's biasness. They really are good friends and they make me want to come back and work again.. ^^ thanks 'papa'!!!

24th november 2005

2005-11-24T10:52:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was my school's graduation night. it was a fun night ^^, loads of yummy food, fun & games and dancing yeah.. i was dressed it a rather beautiful looking dress with a white blouse and black skirt but unfortunately, due to my forgetfulness, i forgot to change my earrings. so i just wore my golden rose earrings that i always wear. I wasn't late dispite that i got out of the house 45 mins before the event started. i saw all my friends dress very lavishly. one of them even looked like a bride and i also received a flower from a dear friend of mine i was very sweet of her. When the party started we all got together on one table and waited for our teachers to have their turns at the buffet before ours. The food was great, dispite that most were spicy. The dessert too was delicious assorted cakes like cream puffet walnut cake and cheesecake..yum!

The festivies at the party was great too..first off was the class photo taking. seeing all my classmates dress so hansomely and beautiful, made me feel so envious of them but no matter i like mine just the way it was hehe, after the phototaking, there was some table games and lucky draw. My table also won $50 dollars during the lucky draw thanks to my maths teacher who had the honour of drawing haha *he's my lucky star XD* after the fun and games, there was the nomination of the prom king and queen. A lot of people was selected and most of them beautiful. Two of my friends were even lucky enough to be selected too. Unfortunately, they did not made it to the top 10 haha.. after that when the judges of the prom king and queen, we had our supper, i had minestrone soup *yum!* and it was delicious.

When the last minute feasting was done, the DJ announced if anybody had anything to say before the announment of the prom king and queen. A schoolmate in class 5G, made a little poem about someone he had a crush on hmmm... i wonder who he was refering to *definiately not me!!*. after him, came my friend who made a thank you speech to all her teachers. Then finially, came the announcment of the prom king and queen. The results were of two unknown people haha but they were cool and beautiful. After that, we had our very own disco dancing!!! hehehe yeah.. it was a cool and good night!!