6th June 2005
It hasn't been a good day.. Firstly, got headache, Threats from my sister and my dad today... haiz... Goes back to his childish pouting again...The reason that i am having a headache is because of the 2 above reasons..My sister today keeps hurling threats today saying that she'll tell mum about me downloading anime and botting. Botting is a programme which one uses to train one's charater in Ragnarok Online. She was willing to jepardise her chance just to get me into trouble. There were countless of times whereby she asks me to do thnigs fro her like washing her cup, helping her to get things and placing me in a difficult postiton and bribe me. When i ask her for those favours she threatens me..I feel SO depressed. My own sister is bullying me!!! *cries in agony*
Just then, when my dad came back from his prayer shopping, he hurled some pain-stakingly stupid comments at us saying that we never apporach him with anything..worse yet, he says that we don't treat him like a dad and tell us to never memtion him as a father. he even said "you all only think abt eat, sleep and mummy..." Haiz... I do not konw what has gotten into him..people just state a comment and he just gets angry with us.. Why the hell does he always blame us for?? Have he ever thought about himself? What he did that led us away from him.. Why is he always surpportive of my younger cousins?? Is it because they are better than us?
Is it because one of my cousins is a boy? Why is sometimes angry with mother? Is it because he is jealous of her for being his daughters favourite parent?? I don't know what he thinks but he should know that my love for my parents are equal and i wished he'd stop being so childish..
With all this problems today, i really felt suicidal.. I even wondered if i am suffering from depression../.\ i just really don't know.. and with all these problems will it affect my studies?? i hope not because i REALLY want to get into an animation course and be an animator. I really want to.. Just hope that father stop being biased towards the Junior Collage and the polytechnic students..... Haiz...STRESS!!!!
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