Sweet Nothings

30th august 2005

Today i qurrelled with one of my friends today. she's the sort that is extremely sensitive and you've got to be extra careful with what you say and do so that you would not hurt her feelings..

the reason why i qurrelled with her was that i accidentally said something bad about her. Feeling very hurt, she dicided to ditch me dragging my two others friends along so feeling puzzled as to why i do not see them at the table where we always hang out so i went to talk to her. Each time i tried, she either gave me the cold shoulder or purposely talked in an angry tone each time i asked what was wrong. The truth came to light when one of my friends in which she dragged away, told me that i had actually bad-mouthed about her. Feeling rather guilty i apologized to her this morning. I my mind and with what i saw, she keeps a calm and cheerful mind withthe others but with me.. she seemed so distress which gives me the feeling of wanting to get away from me. She told then( this morning) that she excepts my apology but is too stressed to talk to me right now, but it seems perfectly unfair to me that she speaks rather cheerfully to the others. so i asked her why, she said Jing Yan was going to be a very good phyciaitrist and Jun Mao was a good person. So in a feat of anger i screamed "SO I'M TOO MUCH STRESS FOR YOU TO TALK TO ME IZIT? FINE" and stormed away to the parade square with tears in my eyes.

I'm do not think she's feeling guilty now or rather i do not even think that she's wondering what i'm feeling right now. I truth i don't know what to do right now. I feel a bit guilty but it's true. I did not know what's making her upset until i was told. She should have told me instead of keeping it away from me. Is'n't friends surppose to tell one another their mistakes?? Why doesn't anyone tell me what's wrong or what i should know these days? Why? WHy? WHY?!!!!!! It's fasturating you know!!!

posted by Lucinda @ 11:02 PM